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Today  was not so miserable, depressed, horrible day i guess (since it’s only 11.02am though)

Alhamdulillah..till then..we’ll see in the afternoon plak..hmm..

Hopefully this "OK” word will comes.

Have you ever feel like you’re at your lowest level ever?

Well, I’m good at pretending though. You can see me happy, laughing with at most of the time. But, deep inside..my heart was torn out or broke into tiny tiny pieces with no possibility of gluing it back.

I have everything in this world and yet I don’t have anything at all.

Salam to all esp. mothers out there,
I know it’s kinda late, but maybe it’s not ”too little too late” rite.
I wanna take this chance to wish all mothers, Happy Mothers Day. (y they used happy??why not joy, exciting etc..erm…???nevermind..)

To my mother..Selamat Hari Ibu..i love you with all my heart.(though mines quite small but it has allocations for each and every person that i loved). Nothing could ever replace you..i wish i can give you everything in return, but nothing can buy your true love, devotions, passions, patience that you gave me.

‘’semoga mak panjang umo, murah rezeki (dpt cucuk lagik), dpt pegi aji cepat ngan abah dan segala-gala doa yg mak deserve to dapat.Amin.”

As for me (sob..sob..), sadly Girl didn’t wish me yesterday though (sob..sob again..).But nevermind..it’s enuff for me to her grows so fast that i missed her tiny tiny fingers during her birth..huhu..

As for my ”mak mertua”,
”mak..i wish you a happy mother’s day too. may all your worries and sadness will turn to sand and washed away forever. I wished i have that chance to say that ”l love you too”..maybe that time will come someday..hopefully..Amin”

As for me again,
i finally knew what it feels like to be a mother when i gave birth to Aleeya, watching her grow, dealing everyday worries about her..and the feeling would never end as long as I’m a mother. even though sometimes i do complain but it’s only meaningless words from an unconscious & tired little mother in which i did regrets after i became conscious & not so tired anymore.hihi..
nevermind, ones always learn from their own mistakes. I’m pretty sure that i’m a good mother. everyone’s a good mother…at least for once.

niway..Happy Mother’s Day. Actually every day is a mother’s day..

Mother and mother-to-be someday….

Four jobs I have had in my Life


1. therapeutic radiographer (has owes been my dream job to be part of the RT team)
2. a wife
3. a mama
4. an irritated person who nag so much that no one would even listen..hah!

Four movies I have watched more than once:


1. Lord of The Rings
2. Sweet November (love Keanu so much..cried each time i replay that movie..huhu)
3. Chicken Little (dunno why i replayed it though…??)
4. many more..that i can’t remember the title lah..

 
Four places I have lived: 

1. Bangi, Selangor
2. Sentul, KL (really miss those times…)
3. Bukit Gambir & Gelugor, Penang
4. Miri…owes in my heart..
5. currently in Balok, Pahang…five oredy?

Four places I have been:
 

1. have never been to overseas yet..sob..sob..
2. the answer would be the same as above..haha
3. erm..
4. erm..erm..think hard!!!

Four of my favorite foods:

1. my mum’s cooking la of course..
2. lambchop..yummy..i hate steak though ;((
3. erm…aik..no idea oredy..
4. erm..againnnn….fuh..

(based on the answers above..surely i’m the person who eat less n obviously no interest on food. i eat for life!)

Four places I would rather be right now:

1. no 23, Lrg Baluk Makmur 34, Taman Balok Indah, 26100, Kuantan..my house larr..
2. would n will owes wanting to be in 512, Kg Lembah Hijau, Jln Riam, 98000, Miri Sarawak..(miss my parent so muc!!)
3. in heaven…(sapa la xnk jd ahli syurga..mintak2 dpt hidayah cepat..Amin)
4. in a box..so that no one finds me!!!

Four things I am looking forward to this year:

1. hmm..salary increment by Pak Lah’s government..bila la lecturer ni nk naik gaji..
2. Hari Raya with my family in Miri..1st comeback raya wit sista..
3. money pouring down from the sky…so that i can quit job n break & settle contract with I*U*
4. to have another baby..haha..poyo je nie..haha (okay..okay..NEXT plzzzz)

TV shows that I watch:

1. House..(sbb wan tgk..i pon join jek la)
2. Desperate Housewives (am i one of them?????)
3. Are You Smarter Than A 5th Grader (wish that show was in Malaysia..surely the producer will bankrupt..haha..prove that the western people are stupid etc)
4. Bella..sbb nama anak pompuan Syah (played by not-so-handsome-anymore Azhar Sulaiman) sama ngan nama Aleeya..suke tgk Aleeya heran napa org lm TV panggil dia..hihi (giggles politely…)

Sorry for this late updates. Currently been very busy with this work thing. As usual hav to entertain other people 1st since they have been spending tonnes of money paying for my salary..and also..this internet i’m using are theirs.so, xbole lawan tokei la..

Updates on Aleeya a.k.a Girl

She lose couple of grammes of her weight due to recurrent flu n cough…almost 2months oredy.doctor said that it will only stop until she reach 5yrs..Haaaaaaaaaaaa…(Jaw dropped. Kinda misunderstood..hihi).

Apart from that..she is still a happy little girlish Girl. Temper tantrums come occasionally esp. after ’school-time’. Maybe she did not get the attention that she usually got from her former babysitter kut. That’s why i will owes be the one who need to deal with it. Pity me..lucky her Ayah. By the time her Ayah got back from work..the anger dh sort of went down oredy.

Still..apart from that..she can speaks out 2suku kata oredy. But mainly on simple word like Bibi, Tido, minum..so on..(can’t even remember at this moment lar…). Then she can sings that one particular song that i hav no idea what that song was..All i heard was..

”titak diam..titak diam..cumm..cum..cum..yeay..(clapping her hand)”

Maybe they usually sing it during ‘’school-time” maybee…need to find out one day!

Hmm..what else..??(runs out of ideas…)

Okay..Updates on me. Still single (in terms or body..not carrying any particular object associated..hihi).

Still skinny..becoming more ‘’skinnier” (if there’s such term exist) i guest..in other word..sudah semakin kurang mantap sbb x exercise  maa..

think i need to reorganise myself..esp on my working schedule (byk main, gossip..etc), reincarnate myself for better me, rejuvente myself for healthy me, rearrange my sense of fashion..so that i’ll not be one of that outdated n offtrack mama!!!..most important is to be my own-self n not becoming other person..(huhu..tetiba jiwang kejap..)

niway, enuf of me..till then..bubye…

salam,
since lama dh x updet.so, arini menggagahkan diri jugak nk mengupdet blog nie.
last saturday genaplah Aleeya 18bulan.so, anakanda officially dh setahun setengah.baju pon kena survey kt area toddler dh sbb susah sgt nk cari saiz 18-24months.so, anakanda tpaksa la pakai baju budak 2yr yg mana quite besar utk dia.al maklumla anakanda yg chumil nie agak ‘tomei’ saiznya.

pkembangan anakanda setakat nie banyak jugak.tiap hari mesti ada kerenah baru dia.xtaula maybe blajar kt taska kut.

Aleeya’s deveplopment so far:

• makin petah bcakap.tp mainly suku kata akhir je la. e.g.
  sakit–> tik, jatuh–> gok, takut–>tooookkkk, mamam, bubur–>bobo, berak–>beyak, nak susu–> nak chuchu, nak keluar–> waarrr,biskut–>tuuukk,jom!–>yoommm..etc
• skang nie dh faham almost anything yg mama n ayah dia ckp w/pon mama dia ckp s’wak..haha.nasib baik x pening anak aku..hihi
• total gigi dh ada 12batang, 6atas n 6bawah.
• xmeragam bila brush teeth dh..tupon sbb ada flavored toothpaste.siap perisa berries lagiks.
• dh kenal where is exactly her hidung,rambut,tangan,perut etc.akan senyum selebar-lebarnya bila mama/ayah ask to tunjuk gigi..
• skarang tengah obses dgn seluar/pants.pantang nmpak sluar mesti berusaha sedaya upaya nk pakaikn sendiri.xmo org tolong tuh!isk isk..kalau tolong sure mengamuk sakan!!
• tgh blajar sebut one, two, three..sebutan x baper betul lagiks..tp bunyi dh ada.
• pandai bukak almari dia..pastu pi selongkar sume baju.kalau dia tgh diam/senyap jek,maknanya ada ler keje illegal yg dibuatnya.
• pandai nyanyi n kekadang tu ckp sesorang dia.mayb ada imaginary fren kut.hihi..

hmm..nie ada satu kisah yg agak kelakarla jugak.
Aleeya ni ada satu tebiat yg agak menggeramkn mama dia gak la.Aleeya nie kekadang suke sesaja sakitkan ati mama dia.so, dipendekkan cerita….

satu mlm nie mama n ayah bz buat hal memasing.Aleeya pulak dh abis satu living room tu dia sepahkan.cuma tinggal satu benda jek dia xbuat lagiks.then,dia pegi amik handbag mama n bawak kluar purse mama.lagi kita ckp jgn lagi la dibuatnya.hmm..pastu, as usual dia akan keluarkn semua duit esp duit kertas.renyuk2kn nk sepahkan atas lantai.mama dh xlarat nk marah dh..biar jekla.

pastu..tetibe jek tkedek n ttonggek dia bejalan sesorang pi ke dapur.mama dh suspek somthing fishy nie.pastu mama ckp, ”Girlllllllllll, buat ape tu kt dapur??” Anakanda xbagi respon pon (as usual) n buat donno then terus pegi living hall balik. Isk isk..mama xpuas ati sbenarnye tp dek kerana mama ni quite pelupa orgnya, so xingatla nk pi buat spot chek kt dapur.

then, on other situation, mama kemas2 dapur n as usual akan buang semua mende mende yg dh ter’due n ter’smelly ke dlm tolong sampah.Alangkah terkejutnye mama bile tgk lm bakul sampah tu ”ku lihat cam ada duit kertas jek”!sekali mama korek, semua jenis duit ada dalam tu.almost all my money are dumped on the bin.Haiyaaaaa ini budak!!!!!!manyak pandai woo..manyak kaya ada jugak wooo..!!!!!

moral of the story is put ur handbag on higher place that can’t be reached by ur children.might as well u blame the thief or pick pocket for stealing all ur money whereas the real situation is ur dotter kept them in the dustbin!hihi..

sekian coretan kali ini.

salam..sungguh lama xupdet blog.actually hari nie pon is considered an extra busy day for me. i have tonnes of ‘to do lists’.one of them is ‘PREPARE EXAM QUESTIONS FOR 3SUBJECTS’.Uwaaa..maunye nangis arini..or..pecah kepala pikir soalan spy student x boleh jawab..haha..lecturer yg agak keji!!!
but the need to updet my blog surpassed all those works..hahahah..
based on the main title itself..i think i really need to jot some updates on ‘milestone development’ of Áleeya.
well..for a start..or sort of side info..Aleeya dh x dok ngan ‘íbu” dia lagi since Kak Nor n family dh moved to PD for good!so, i send her to taska nearby iium at Taman Polo.masa nak survey for taska..actually bukan sy yg survey..hubby survey kt area Balok 1st.since i preferred the taska to be near workplace, we decided to send her at Taska Idaman Suri (reluctantly..huhuh..).bla..bla..bla…apparently some changes happened to our plan (which is ibu stays with us for another week,while all of her daughters in PD including her pak n mak. this is to prepare Aleeya to meet her new babysitter), me n hubby with our heart full of stones sent Aleeya to TIS  without enough time to emotionally be prepared.
i think all mothers out there surely faham my situation..
sedey????……tak terkira dh volume air mata ni yg gugur each time pikir pasal camne Aleeya nk get used to the ”baby factory” environment..Aleeya are so used to the spoilt,cuddly with her ibu n ayah n kakaks,all attention goes to her kinda environment. So, konfemla dia xbleh tahan dok taska since taska tu ada 4 org babysitter-2 jaga baby besar & 2 lagi jaga baby kecik.
Now, Aleeya dah dok kt Taska to almot a months- half of the month with crying issue..as for me, i managed to keep cool hearing her crying voice.Alhamdullilah..Allah finally make the experience quite easy for Aleeya & i finally decided not to go with the new private babysitter n maid kinda thing.

Okies..go to the main tajuk!!!
Her physical development almost complete..cuma skang nie nk meninggi jek.
Skang nie Aleeya tgh mengasah bakat berceloteh dia.al maklumla dia nk prepare masuk story telling contest..haha
Antara development dia:

1. bila nak makan..say nak nak loudly.tandanya nak sgtla tu!
2. bila xmo akan ckp nanak..e.g. aleeya,dh dh okay..dia akan jawab nanaaaaakkkk!
3. panggil mama n ayah gaya manja giteww…sejuk atini dgr.
4. suka ajak pi dapur bukak peti sejuk..pastu lama la nk pilih nk makan ape..fuh
5. tiap kali dgr bunyi keta ayah jek..terus berenti. kekonon nk bagi jelasla betul x ayah dia dh sampai..
6. ada satu aritu dia bwk bantal bucuk n pampers pi dapur. masa tu tgh kt dapur.pastu ckp ”yak”..rupenye dia melepas betul2..mak dia ingat dia buat lawak..haha..klakar jek.
7. reti sebut, yam for ayam,yor for telur,mamam for makan, num for minum, bed for bird, tat for cat,bibi for baby.
8. skang ni paham hampir semua yg mama n ayah ckp.

hmm..kalau nk di list down semua..sampai petang pon bole.
kla..enuf for today..

mama doa Aleeya makin sehat, selera makan, makin comel, makin cerdik, makin ayu dari hari ke hari.
kalau mama marah girl..surely for your own good!Aleeya jgnla amik ati ekk..mama will owes love u!

Comel tak gamabr paspot dia. Masa balik Miri last yr kekonon nk buat paspot.alih alih x jadi plak.tp mama simpan lam purse.rasa gambar ni dia nampak extra comel..posing habis ayu giteww..geram jek tgk..rasa nk gomol jek pipi tu!!!

fuh…barula ada kesempatan nk update blog.sblm nie sgtla bz ngan as usual ‘never ending lecture notes’, course review,tutorial on clinical practice (which i hated the most!!!) & any other miscellaneous work.saat2 mcm nie la tpikir ‘why i bcome a lecturer in da 1st place’..sort of regret i would say.tp nak buat cm mana,kena habiskan jugak sampaila habis kontrak ngan uia ni.hmm..xpela.niat utk tolong family n hopefully mak abah still proud of me.
berbalik dengan tajuk entry kali nie.actually kitorang tiga beranak pi Genting masa cuti Maal Hijrah aritu.org lain buat azam baru..kitorang tiga pegi meronggeng plak.we stayed at Theme Park Hotel.satisfied with the room condition maybe baru lepas renovate kut.whether time tu sgtla windy n chilly.luckily no air-cond,kalau tak sure beku tiga branak.we stayed only for one nite..so, early morning to starts our journey backhome to kuantan.actually pegi genting pun sbb nk singgah kejap kt bukit tinggi rabbit park.teringin nk bawak aleeya pi tgk rabbit.
so, on da way nk balik tu pegila singgah kt rabbit park.there was rather funny incident happened during our visit to rabbit park.anddd…..the victim was my only Girl.this is how the story goes…

(during feeding time–rabbit tu makan some sort of tiny bits of ‘asam like’..hihi)

worker: you nk try bagi makan rabbit tak.tp kena bhati2 cos the rabbit might bite u kalau x bg dgn cara yg betul.

mama: hmm..xmola bg..takutt..girl nk try bagi tak??

Girl:blurred…(nak la kut)

so, mama pon pegang tgn girl n letak mamam rabbit tu on her palm.then she successfully fed one of th Mr. Rabbit.
so, mama let girl by herself to feed the rabbit.
Suddenly..

Girl: Uwaaa……………..(crying out loud!!!!!!!!)

mama: napa ngan girl ni Yang??

ayah: ala..kena jilat dek rabbit jek.

mama:isk..isk..kalau kena jilat nie xknla nangis plak.mesti kena gigit nie.

hubby insisted that nothin had happened.
then her finger bled. i noticed many deep scratch on her middle finger.no wonderla she cried like Hell..sakit rupenye anak mama ni.cianla Girl tu..

we laughed on the incident sbb aleeya fobia nk pegang rabbit dh lepas tu.
then we went straight to KL (xjd balik kuantan daa..) for some shopping..then went back home on the same day.gile aper!!!

1. Name one person who made you laugh last night.
aleeya makes me laugh all the time with her funny behavior ;))
2. What were you doing at 0800?
waved aleeya n ayah gudbye n off to work
3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
uploading pics in fotopages
4. What happened to you in 2006?
got pregnant & gave birth to a beautiful baby girl in September. 1st anniversary of me n hubby!!!
5. What was the last thing you said out loud?
Ape Yang???x dengar…
6. How many beverages did you have today?
Ice tea (breakfast), sugar can (tea time) & had coke after dinner..crazy me huh!!such unhealthy diet!!
7. What color is your hairbrush?
pink n brown
8. What was the last thing you paid for?
bought my first shade ever..
9. Where were you last night?
at home busy typing never ending lecture notes
10. What color is your front door?
crystal clear..sliding door got no color maa…
11. Where do you keep your change?
my purse..and everywhere
12. What’s the weather like today?
gloomy..raining season is still on
13. What’s the best ice-cream flavor?
not really into ice cream..but vanilla i guess, have the least flavor among all others
14. What excites you?
being able to go back to Miri!!!!
15. Do you want to cut your hair?
desperately need a haircut!!!
6. Are you over the age of 25?
sadly YES ;((
17. Do you talk a lot?
ermm..yup esp with hubby n close frens
18. Do you watch the O.C.?
yes..but not lately
19. Do you know anyone named Steven?
no..but i do know stephen chow!!!haha
20. Do you make up your own words?
think so..esp on the wrong usage of grammar n vocab..haha
21.Are you a jealous person?
not really..i don give a single damn bout other people
22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’
Aisyah
23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’
Kamaz..haha..nape tah teringat nama dia plak ;))
24. Who’s the first person on your received call list?
My student..reminding me on 2pm class
25. What does the last text message you received say?
Happy New Year from Ija Russia
26. Do you chew on your straw?
Nope..but Aleeya did..
27. Do you have curly hair?
my hair quite straight i guess
28. Where’s the next place you’re going to?
bed..haha
29. Who’s the rudest person in your life?
person whose name starts with letter ‘Z’..haha!!
30. What was the last thing you ate?
Chicken Rice at Giant
31. Will you get married in the future?
No,I’m happily married.
insyaAllah our marriage will last for eternity..Amin
32. What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks?
hmm…School of Rock…xde citer lain ker nak tgk???
33. Is there anyone you like right now?
Yes, my hubby, girl & my family are on top of my list!

34. When was the last time you did the dishes?
just now..bottle dish..
35. Are you currently depressed?
occasionally..but not at the moment
36. Did you cry today?
Na’ah..strong mama meh..
37. Why did you answer and post this?
just to update this blog
38. Tag 5 people who would do this survey.
one people only la..kak sue n..haha

Anyway, just to wish Happy New Year to everyone..hope this coming 365days will be fulfilled with happiness, fortune,keberkatan from Allah SWT.

i hope i’ll be a better person each day…Amin.

***Sya’s Birthdate: November 8***

Watch out Donald Trump! You’ve got a head for business and money.
You’ll make it rich some day, even if you haven’t figured out how yet.
A supreme individualist, you shouldn’t get stuck in a corporate job.
Instead, make your own way - so that you can be the boss.

Your strength: Your undying determination (yeke..bole caya ker nie??)

Your weakness: You require an opulent lifestyle (cam xbaper logik jek kan??)

Your power color: Plum (camner ekk kaler plum nie??hmmm..)

Your power symbol: Dollar sign ($$$$$$hmm…show me the money!!!!)

Your power month: August (the month i got married..but..nothing to do wit money.)

Kuang kuang kuang..;))

Ada logik kaa??ada talent kaa mau jd donald trump..doa2 la yer.mudah2an termakbul.malas dh mkn gaji gomen nie..hihi

salam..one week with no updates..hmm..aci la tue kan??nnti bila stat, xreti nak stop plak.

niway..last nite hubby went to KL for two days course.he stays in concorde..mesti bes kalau bole ikut kan kan????sure me n girl mamam bekfast with all chaos on the table, running around in hotel room while waiting for ayah, staring wit no idea at KLCC from our hotel window….think i should have followed hubby la..sedih..huk huk..

tonite..again..have to sleep alone with girl.luckily someone did told me about sleeping with car key by the side of my bed.so that if anything suspicious,i can strainght away press the "red" button.hopefully nothing bad gonna happen tonite..don worry mama will ensure all doors, windows, front gate are lock.

this morning..browsed in the IIU webmail inbox..then spotted on the word "payslip" only. (isk..ingat duit jek..).alhamdullillah starting this month, my gaji oredi up one stage..hopefully i’ll be motivated by those figures.hmm..insyaAllah..xnk nk bg mamam dear girl ngan duit yg kurang berkat kut.choyyyyyy….

hmm..after looking at the payslip,waaa…..my mind automatically thought of how am i gonna spend it..don worry..half of it i would debit into me saving account la.I kan kedekut orgnya..muahahaha..
—-small portion for abah and mak
—-small portion to settle on the credit credit credit..so that credit no more.and……..can provide bigger space for more credits..haha
—-balance will be ‘joli katak’ with hubby and girl…hopefully bole pi bercuti with girl n hubby..(am thinking of cameron or genting..which one’s better??)
—-another balance…hmm..mama very eager la on buying girl sport shoe. dh spot on satu snicker yg agak comel (siap kaler grey ngan pink giteww), tp ayah plak xbkenan. xpe..mama nk beli gaks kt girl,nnti ayah pi beli lain okes.
—another balanced..nak beli something kt hubby??hmm..kena tanya hubby dulu.(hopefully..yg murah2..haha..kedekut tol!!!)

time nearly half past 4pm, wuaa….lec notes 4 tmorrow still not finish.okayla..GTG..

~sekian dulu updet dari wife wan mama girl~